Crazy Fun Every Day Life

Wow! I could not believe my eyes or ears when I heard and saw Charlie Sheen on TV. “Winning”, Chariots, tiger blood from my fangs, god almighty, higher than anyone on the planet. Well guess what? This was my mom exactly!

I kid you not if you look back you will see she was talking about chariots and she had pressured speech. The exact same as Charlie sheen. It was amazing. If my mom was 20 years younger like Charlie she would have been sexually crazy as well. Matter of cat now you can see all of the manic in Charlie over the years, it is just coming out more and more. People do not understand it, but now that I understand it, it is no doubt a manic episode.

Even Dr. Drew confirmed as well as other psychologist. My mom being 64 talked crazy sex talk, Charlie is living it. My guess is the last episode of him going into the hospital was the crown. My mom is finally back to normal, 95%. now that we know what an manic episode is we can see it in her, so technically she is 10% back to normal, we just see the manic better now.

Funny thing is she really did quit drinking and like Charlie she smoked cigarettes like mad. it is the one thing she cannot kick. Like most addicts, the cigarette is the one thing that keeps them on edge I think.

I think they should quit smoking as well.

I hope you get better Charlie, I love your show, but you are in denial.  My mom was as well and it landed her in the mental ward. Thank god, because she might have hurt herself or someone else. Hopefully you are not giving away everything like she was.

Often manics hit rock bottom and then once everything is gone they realize they what they have done and like my mom has to live on a budget when she had it all.

November 18, 2010 Thursday.

I missed day 26 and 27, mom was sounding great and just started her new medicine last night. The new shrink tested her blood to see if the depakote was in her system enough and he said it was.

Tonight I went to my moms house to do a group session, Tom was there and the first thing he said was we have to get her away from the shrink and get her to a new one. he said this one did not know what he was talking about and said mom was having a nervous break down. Maybe this was a technique by the new shrink, but the fact is she is bipolar.

It is so sad to see my mom go out like this. We all sat around a table in the garage freezing our asses off so mom, max and Jay could smoke. It was also obvious to see that Max was very upset we were there. I was asked there by Jay and seeing no one had asked me before I was not going to barge in but Jay said I was not doing enough. Fact is I think Mom should have gone to a new hospital and not home. Max is 80 years old and cannot take care of her and is obviously mentally worn out.

As usual Jay tried to be super smart and analyze every thing and talk like he was a big shot to the therapist. No matter what I said it was the wrong thing and was quickly shot down, so as usual I was t osit and keep my mouth shut.

Well guess what, I will do just that from here on out. I have my own things to worry about and if Jay and Max will not let me help then they have no one to blame but them selves. We had 2 appointments set up for Jamie’s mothers doctor who fixed her mom. Max once again cancelled the appointment. She has a 4 month wait to get a new patient in! I cannot beleive it.

Max sat and yelled this is all about him because he is the one that has to live with her on a daily basis, but the fact is if he would have had her moved to another hospital then she would have been better by now. But no he decided to move her to the house so he could take care of her and now he is regretting it.

Jay is manipulating everything is is lying about so many things that I have a hard time believing anything he says. It has all gone absolutely nuts!

They basically said to get over it and accept the “new” mom. Well sorry, not gonna happen. If they think I will go over there an sit around and get yelled at for 5 hours and told what a piece of crap everyone is they are nuts.

Jay thinks everyone is an asshole. He thinks Paul is an asshole and said max said the same thing, of course Jay was lying and trying to get me to turn on Paul. Jay is oblivious to it all and the fact I have been on to him for years now.

Anyway, it all ended with Max yelling it is all about him and my mom and no one else, I am sorry this affects all of us. All of her sons, who have been around a lot longer than this loser home wrecker Max ( charles) Mclendon. My mom and him have lied for the past 20 years and had an affair behind my fathers back until the day he died. She voided her grandson the whole time and now she blames me for her not showing up to his birthdays. Yet she drove around a man for 20 years who drank every single day of his life ( and I mean drink!). But never showed up to ONE single birthday party. His first birthday my father showed up with gifts and said my mom could not make it. She was with Max. The shitty part was she had to drive past my house to get to her every single day and she never stopped in to see her grandson. She wouldn’t even be called grand ma. He calls her meme.

So tonight Max screamed and yelled like I have never seen before and I just got up and walked out.  I can take it form her but I will never take from him. He is also going senile, it is getting worse. I told him he was going manic as well and he shut up for a minute. I have had it with all of them talking over me. No more. At this point I do not feel like I will be going back.

The part that really blew me away is when max said it was all about him, I just could not believe it. She needs medical care and he took it away from her. I hold him and Jay responsible and he will get what he deserves in the end. He has ruined lives for many years, and it was so sad for him to say what he said. Either way, they wanted to handle it so they can.

November 15, 2010 Monday

Funny how today was the big day to see the psychiatrist and not one person called and said anything about how the appointment went. As usual they keep us in the dark and never tell you anything and when you ask it is just a big old lie. One after another, great thing is I am smart enough to see past it all. So the more they lie the less respect I have for them, soon I will not be there for any of them any longer.

Finally mom was home and answered the phone and she sounded really good for the first 5 minutes and then she went a small bit manic but over all was very good.

My guess is she does not want anyone to know she is on medicine and she didn’t mention the Doctor until I said how did the doctor go?

She said he was really nice and she canceled the other appointment with my wife’s moms Dr.  This was fine as long as she was seeing a shrink. Everyone has had it with her bossing them around and tired of her being rude and telling everyone they are fat. She finally lost weight after 20 years and now she thinks the world should lose weight as well. Being bi polar is not so bad when they are mellow, but when they are assholes it is not pretty.

She said the Dr was laid back and she said he wants to do blood work in the morning to see how her current meds are in her blood. Jay says he told her to to wait and take her ” sprinkles” late tonight around 10pm. Sprinkles is Depakote and she has taken it every night since she has been to the hospital. She thinks she will not have to take any other medicines like Prozac, Carbamazepine,Lamotrigine, Topiramate, Gabapentin. She thinks she is perfectly fine and she wants to live her life out as she wants. She also told the doctor yes she is spending a lot of money but if she does not set it free it will not bring back any of its friends.

I am going to write about this until day 31, but overall today was the best she has sounded in a long time.  She will still be easy to set off, like a 4 year old when hey get told no. So we will continue to walk on egg shells and see how it all goes. Jay is at her house right now and he said she is also doing well. We are planing on hanging out tomorrow and having a few drinks.

Today was a quiet day, mom went shopping yet again and it seems the bi polar mania is to blame. So far she was spending 2-5,000 a day. Today was only sketchers. I have no idea how much money they have or if they are doing OK, but max is not being man enough and sticking up to her. He is going to let her blow all the money until they are in trouble.  I hope not anyway. Jay said she was looking very sickly and more than likely because she is not sleeping. She said she is getting head aches and the top of her head feels like it is hot.

I have begged everyone to get to the hospital and do a MRI and no one seems to think it is important. Tomorrow is the big day and she will see a psychiatrist finally! I am hoping he will prescribe her the best medicine right off of the bat.

Jay is going with her so this is a good thing. I want my positive, loving mother back. With Mania she is not anyone I know any longer. Poor Max for going through all of this for 2 weeks now.  I am so disappointed with so many doctors. Most just do not care any longer.

We went and saw Jamies mom,dad and sister today. Her dad is smoking like a train and the place was so smoky it was not to much fun.

I did enjoy seeing her mom and sister and dad. He left for work shortly after we got there and we took her aunt and uncle to lunch with her mother at Luby’s and talked business.

I can not wait to see how tomorrow goes! Wed she has an appointment with the same doctor Jamies mom sees. I feel she will be the best.

Amazing, our parents take care of us and then we end up taking care of them.

I love them soooo much, so not a problem. I wish I lived  closer now.

At least we have a second car now.

Saturday, November 13, 2010

Today was a quiet day. Jay hung out with mom and said she was all over the place would not let anyone talk and said she would never take any medication. Not for anyone and if we all insisted she does then we can get the hell out.

Mom is really looking old and sick.  Some times she looks like death and it is really horrible to see someone you love so much in this condition. She is not getting sleep and really needs it badly.  She is still bossing everyone around like we all owe her a life time of worship.  She is not eating so well and she finally ate some food. She is so very obsessed with losing weight she looks sickly.

She was the most positive person you would ever meet in your life… If you ever started to complain about a person she would stop you and say, “that does not matter! Focus on what you do want and not what you do not want”. Now she is nothing but negative negative negative. exactly the opposite of what she normally is.

It was still a busy day. My collar bone has been hurting me as well as my left foot. The golf made my collar bone hurt, so I have to get it fixed so I can play more golf!